PAINFUL SILENCE

The silence between us seems to seep into every pore, crawling under my skin,

leaving me feel hurt and confused. I can only hear the voices inside my head,

remembering all those beautiful moments, getting lost on the roads to 

the past. A past that holds so many happy words and laughter. A past 

that knew no sadness. A past that is just that – past.

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camera: bronica sq-a

film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired

© nicole sprekelmann

SHINE ME SOME HAPPINESS

Breathing in bright rays of light that come visiting this morning. I let them tickle my winter skin

and brighten up the quiet sadness of the endless darkness. Drinking in the golden glow in

urgent gulps, embracing every spec of glittering dust dancing in the newfound brightness.

Pushing away every thought, just be, feeling lost in the bright glow.

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camera: nikon fm2n

film: kodak portra 200

© nicole sprekelmann

A TASTE FIR THE NEW YEAR

A year of small changes and big insights is nearing the end.

I usually get a little melancholic towards the end of each year. Time seems to

be passing quicker than ever and I seem to be running around like

a lunatic, totally missing out on peaceful and quiet moments.

I wish I could instead sit quietly and remember some of the year,

reminisce about 2013. 

What had the biggest impact on me the past year? What were the best moments

this year? Which ones were the ones I would have liked to have missed? Which goals

have been archived and which have been missed? What were the moments that

influenced me the most, that made me want to strive for more?

2013 had many moments that moved me, made me take a look inside. There were many

sad moments, family stuff burdening me down throughout the year. At the same time I had

many wonderful moments and inspiring encounters. 

Was I inspired to grow in 2013?  Yes, there were many of those moments that make one

get down to work and grow. I found renewed passion for creativity and the wish to explore

and go different ways. Many beautiful moments were spent dreaming up projects for

the future, wishing for things that seem too far to reach. But those usually leave the 

sweetest taste. A taste for what 2014 will bring. 

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CAMERA: NIKON FM2N

FILM: KODAK PORTRA 400