Showing posts with label analog. Show all posts
Showing posts with label analog. Show all posts

8/20/2014

PAINFUL SILENCE



The silence between us seems to seep into every pore, crawling under my skin,
leaving me feel hurt and confused. I can only hear the voices inside my head,
remembering all those beautiful moments, getting lost on the roads to 
the past. A past that holds so many happy words and laughter. A past 
that knew no sadness. A past that is just that – past.


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camera: bronica sq-a
film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired
© nicole sprekelmann


DRUNK ON WORDS


words


have


no


reality


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camera: nikon fm2n
film: kodak portra
© nicole sprekelmann

8/15/2014

SWEET SUMMER DAYS





Summer afternoon – time is standing still. 
Sitting under the old magnolia tree.
Letting the mind wander, 
remembering those wonderful childhood summers. 








Your soft hands and warm kisses on my forehead would wake me in the morning.
You would ask about my dreams, your eyes sparkling. "A dragon?" You would
ask and smile, listening intently to my stories of the night.

Then our tiny feet would sleepily tumble down the 
stairs onto the sunlit terrace, to find our breakfast trays laden with summer treats.
Orane juice, croissants, marmalade, cherries and slices of oranges.






Leaving us with plenty of energy to ride the bike, 
spend hours on the swing in our garden,
climb over fences to hide in the forrest, drink endless 
glasses of sweet iced tea in  colourful glasses, 
climbing the trees in our garden,
splashing in our little pool. 







I can still smell  the sun lotion, hear the music playing from the
stereo. Can still feel the soft skirt brushing against my skin. I can still
remember those white wet sheets blowing in the evening  wind, 
all those warm summer rains and thunderstorms. 






I remember my little red bike and the rose bushes that I hit on my first 
ever solo ride... I remember my little pink swimsuit and how proud I felt to
be wearing it during those long summer afternoons in the pool. 
I can still hear the laughters from our neighbour kids running around
our garden.

Sweet endless summer days ...






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camera: bronica sq-a
film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired
© nicole sprekelmann

6/30/2014

MOM, I LOVE YOU!







The darkest of summers, filled with so much pain, so many
agonizing emotions, filled with fear and still so much hope.
The darkest of summers is leaving a battlefield behind, so many
bruises and painful memories. 
The darkest of summers has left me feeling all helpless and
alone, facing so much emptiness, so much loss. The mind
cannot even understand what is happening.
The darkest of summers.

The last laugh so long ago that I can 
hardly hear the sound of it anymore. 
The last hug a month ago. 
The last word more than a week ago. 
The last glance yesterday.
The last touch and kiss a few hours ago.
The last breath today. 

Find peace.

I love you
mom.



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camera: bronica sq-a
film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired
location: beloved mattsee, place of our summers
© nicole sprekelmann

4/19/2014

IMAGINE









    If you can imagine it,
    you can archive it;
    if you can dream it, 
    you can become it.

    William Arthur Ward


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    camera: bronica sq-a
    film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired
    © nicole sprekelmann

    4/17/2014

    ETERNITY





    The old magnolia in my back garden has been giving shade for decades.
    The first rays of spring sun start kissing my skin while I am sitting underneath
    this old tree, that has seen so many springs. I am mesmerized
    by the soft magentas and whites that dance around in the soft breeze. A slight scent
    lingers, mixing with the scent of my morning coffee. I am looking up, into those 
    countless leaves, willing my brain to take in this stunning picture in for eternity.



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    camera: bronica sq-a
    film: kodak portra 160 nc, expired
    © nicole sprekelmann

    1/20/2014

    PASTEL LIGHT

    Soft light falls upon my pale skin and brings some pastel hues. Will this turn darkness into light?
    Will the powdery softness and those gentle tones turn the inner turmoil into something
    less painful and disturbing? Will light, that traveled so far to kiss my skin bring the much
    sought after peace and calm? 








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    camera: nikon fm2
    film: kodak portra 400
    © nicole sprekelmann

    1/16/2014

    SHINE ME SOME HAPPINESS

    Breathing in bright rays of light that come visiting this morning. I let them tickle my winter skin
    and brighten up the quiet sadness of the endless darkness. Drinking in the golden glow in
    urgent gulps, embracing every spec of glittering dust dancing in the newfound brightness.
    Pushing away every thought, just be, feeling lost in the bright glow.




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    camera: nikon fm2n
    film: kodak portra 200
    © nicole sprekelmann

    12/28/2013

    QUIET WINTER DAY

    Wintertime is tea time, is time to quietly sit and reflect on the year that is coming to an end. 
    I am sitting at the table, candles brightening a day that never even got light. The sky is
    grey and full of rain, not willing to tell all those stories hidden in it's deep clouds. The light is 
    slowly fading into darkness, another winter's day has passed without snow. 



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    camera: nikon fm2n
    film: kodak portra 200
    © nicole sprekelmann

    12/19/2013

    A TASTE FIR THE NEW YEAR


    A year of small changes and big insights is nearing the end.
    I usually get a little melancholic towards the end of each year. Time seems to
    be passing quicker than ever and I seem to be running around like
    a lunatic, totally missing out on peaceful and quiet moments.
    I wish I could instead sit quietly and remember some of the year,
    reminisce about 2013. 



    What had the biggest impact on me the past year? What were the best moments
    this year? Which ones were the ones I would have liked to have missed? Which goals
    have been archived and which have been missed? What were the moments that
    influenced me the most, that made me want to strive for more?



    2013 had many moments that moved me, made me take a look inside. There were many
    sad moments, family stuff burdening me down throughout the year. At the same time I had
    many wonderful moments and inspiring encounters. 



    Was I inspired to grow in 2013?  Yes, there were many of those moments that make one
    get down to work and grow. I found renewed passion for creativity and the wish to explore
    and go different ways. Many beautiful moments were spent dreaming up projects for
    the future, wishing for things that seem too far to reach. But those usually leave the 
    sweetest taste. A taste for what 2014 will bring. 


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    CAMERA: NIKON FM2N
    FILM: KODAK PORTRA 400


    11/22/2010

    Diana mini´s second roll








    Never predictable, 
    never repeatable, 
    never perfect, 
    always perfectly beautiful. 

    That is what you get when you take your Diana mini out to play. 
    This is from my second roll of film, cheap drugstore film, 200 iso. 
    Shot indoor, set to bulb mode, handheld.







    11/14/2010

    Diana mini love

    Here are a few pictures from the diana mini. I used the cheapest film I could find cause I am still trying to figure out what I do. It was some drugstore colorfilm 200 iso. I do like how those turned out. I am really looking forward to experimenting with different situations, films, light and exposure time.








    10/29/2010

    Welcome diana mini


    Isn't she cute? My new white diana mini. I can't believe how tiny she is. She is the perfect companion to take with me in my bag wherever I go.


    The first few rolls of film have been shot and developed, but not scanned yet. I am so very curious as to how the pictures turn out. 
    What I really like about this little gem, is that I can decide if I want to shoot square pics of if I want to shoot half frame and that way get far more pics on one roll of film. 
    I find shooting film to be so much more fun than digital (right now *LOL). It's exciting to wait for your pictures to come back from developing to see how your shots have turned out. It's a totally different game than digital shooting where I tend to shoot a trillion shots of one subject, just cause I can.